"laser beams" - by wintersleep
jealousy is a funny thing. its always there. even when you know its irrational. even when you know he'd never leave you, it still lingers in the dark depths of your mind like the smell of rotten meat. i notice it every time i see him close to someone prettier than me - skinnier, blonder, nicer, cuter, more outgoing. every time i see those girls, i imagine all the reasons that he would leave me for her. but then, the jealousy changes. instead of thinking of all the reasons he would choose her, i think of all the reason he chose me. i think about all those time he's said "I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART". all those times he's said "YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL". the times he's said "YOU ARE ALL I LIVE FOR". and the times he's said "YOU. ARE. PERFECT." i think about all the times he's looked into my eyes for no reason whatsover. all the times he's kissed me. all the times he's stayed up past 2 a.m. just to keep talking. all the times he's ditched everyone for me. and the jealousy flees. because i know that he'd never do or say any of those things to those other girls. he is my one and only.
p.s. i like writing about my boyfriend. it makes me smile.
